Astaghfirullahalazim.. I felt very sinful to you Ya Allah for letting myself love a man this much... But I'd rather let it all out here without him knowing it then let it out to him and keeps adding up sins to our life for telling something that I am not supposed to a man that is my friend....
All the anger in me that I have been holding up so long so that I can let him go slowly, vanished the very first moment I looked at his face.. The very first moment when I saw his face, I felt like I've been struck by cupid once again.. Every single time I look at him yesterday, I fall for him all over again.. And for that, I avoid from looking at him yesterday for so many times tho I miss him so much because I am so afraid to keep on falling for a man who only wants to fall in love with Allah. Ya Allah, please helps me to be strong Ya Allah..
I felt so weak at this moment in my life because I had lost not only someone that I love but I lost my best friend too.. I had done almost everything with him all this while, every day every single moment and when he's gone, I felt so alone without my best friend.. I lost a person that I can talk to when I just wants to have a conversation and I lost someone to comfort my sorrows and to share my joy..
DAN SYURGAMU YA ALLAH....
